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Getting my life together…

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So It seems that I am almost starting to catch up with my life after losing everything when I cam back up here… This is good. I want to go back to school and get my AA… or maybe take some classes for welding… I could really enjoy myself with that…

I just really feel the need to learn. again. I think I am finally getting to the point that I am capable of successfully finishing classes without spazzing out like I did after dad died…

Been reading a book about A woman coming to terms with her father’s suicide… It’s very interesting and comforting to me really… it wasn’t written to be soothing or comforting… but to me it is… I finally feel like I am not alone.

After 5 months John never committed or even remotely hinted at a commitment to me… Ever since we hooked up again I have noticed that he is pretty messed up from his ex… I don’t know what happened really but I know that he was really damaged by her… and I am tired of trying to pick up the pieces…

So my conclusion is that if he doesn’t want to commit to me I won’t commit to him either. Therefore I am dating around like a 23 year old woman should and having a relatively good time. I guess I spent so many years committing myself to one man or another usually without having them being able to promise me much of anything for the future… I never realized that I can date around and figure out exactly what I want. I have a pretty good idea… and I know a few men that fit the bill partially… so I’m just gonna ride this wave out and see what happens… you know?

Work is all over the place… It’s the busy season and I am still not consulting… but I have seen that they are interviewing for consulting positions… which kind of pisses me off given that I was told I should be expecting a promotion around the new year and It’s past Feb. 20th… I have a right to be pissed right?

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