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Learning to Dream again…


Recently I have spent a good amount of my time focusing on developing my life goals and dreams. Sad to say, it seems that I have greatly lapsed in this skill since my school days, so now I am starting over from scratch as an adult. So the following are some questions I have snagged from Ravi Vora. I do not know him personally, however, I did find the post I have linked to particularly helpful in stimulate my brain back into dreaming big once again. So without further ado, here goes!

Q: If you had $100 million dollars what would you do? Money is no issue. just imagine what you would do with your life if money didn’t matter.

A: I would freely give back to all of my friends who have helped me along the way so far repaying their endless generosity with interest and enjoy changing their lives for the better as they have for me in the past. I would also have my own family and raise my children up teaching them about the world by showing them through travel and historical study. I want to be able to support any and all of their talents so that they can make a name for themselves.

Q: What do you think about when you think about Nothing? I believe that when you think about nothing, you are thinking about what you love. When I lay down at night and clear my head for sleep, something always comes rushing back in. The things I love most.

A: When I clear my head an think about nothing, the things that most often cross my mind are having a fmaily and raising them. I also think about having the time and money to adequately enjoy my hobbies and passions like my Viking Age reenactment, building guitars, and my photography. Mostly my thoughts are centered around raising my family to enjoy my passions with me.

Q: What makes you happy every day? Just one thing, however big or small. Expand upon this and you will be closer to figuring out your dream.

A: Jason make me happy every day by letting me know that I am loved and cherished. he makes me feel as it his love and blind affection are completely unconditional for me. All I’ve ever really wanted is to love and be loved and he provides me with this every day.

Q: If you had 60 minutes to live what would you do? Sometimes in your last moments you make crazy decisions. These are our gut instincts and can be associated to our big dream.

A: I would gather my dearest friends and relatives and tell them all that I love them. I would hope that Jason would honor my by marrying me (before God) before I die and spend my last moments with the family that loves me wholly and completely.

Q: What is one thing about your life that you would change right now? Got it? Now change it.

A: I would fix my finances and be ready to get married… I want a family and the love that I believe I will be able to express once I get to have a family of my own.

Q: How do you define success? From having a million stamps to having a million friends on Facebook, success is a general term that each of us define for ourselves. Once you know what your definition of success is, you will be able to go for it.

A: I believe that someone  is successful when they have found what  is meaningful in their lives and have afforded themselves the opportunity to balance that with their spirituality and home life. This also means that one has found a functional and lawful way of achieving this in society.

Q: If you wrote your autobiography, how would you want people to remember you? If you want people to remember you a hero, then start working towards that goal.

A: I want to be remembered as someone who has overcome the many turmoils in life and loved freely, laughed, often and gave much to the world.

Q: If you could visit one place in the world, where would it be? Making a concrete choice will lead you to what you need and will start to drive you towards that place.

A: For me it is hard to choose just one place. But I guess where I would like to go most of all someday is to Disneyland with my (future) family. I want to show them the place where everyone can be a child just like my father showed me.

Q: What is one thing that interests you more than anything else? Whether it’s a hobby, and object, or a person, there’s something you’re interested in so much that it drives you. figure out why you are so interested in it and you will find your big dream.

A: The one thing that drives me is the idea of having a family, Raising them and loving them. I’m interested in it because I love and want to be loved without it ever being circumstantial.

Q: What do you hate doing? Sometimes you can find what you want to do by eliminating what you dislike doing.

A: I hate when I am forced to be false and work below my skill level. I don’t like fulfilling obligations to those who belittle me because in the end they are always going to tear me down.

Q: Who do you admire most? If they have what you want then maybe they are living your dream (or have lived it). Figure out how to live that dream too.

A: I admire those who are able to love, be loved, and love themselves freely. I admire those who have a healthy and happy family life

Q: What is one thing you would change about the world? Now go change it.

A: I’d change all the propaganda that teaches people to be one thing or another because society says so rathewr than to follow their passions and fulfill their responsibilities to God and their loved ones.

Q: What are you doing when you feel the most alive? Is it  skydiving? Writing? Speaking in front of people? Whatever gives you the thrill of living is a great indication as to what you want to really do with your life.

A: I feel the most alive when I am able to forget all the many demons in my life and rather spend my time freely loving on those who deserve it and return their love to me as well.

Q: What was the happiest moment of your life? Find a way to make that moment last the rest of your life.

A: I don’t think it’s happened yet, but rather is going to happen wen I can finally say I have a family.

Q: What is one thing you would change about your past? When we look into our past, we can see what will affect our future. So you can either figure out a way to make that a positive part of your past, or learn from it and move forward. Either way, you’re finding the change to point to your dream.

A: I would have appreciated my family more when we actually got along in my youth. I wish I could have known what I would be mission before it was actually missing.

I really need to learn to update this thing semi-regularly….


So 2010 has already proven to be a somewhat exciting year for me… kind of… but not neccesarily in a good sort of way… So I will start from the beginning…

New Years Eve went over pretty well; my friend Nick came home from Iraq a few days before and had the great taste of turning 21 on Dec 31… So we went to the Grand opening of the new Hell’s Kitchen Down in Downtown Tacoma and saw a number of my friend’s bands including the Atomic Outlaws and The Jet City Fix.
The new venue for Hells Kitchen is alright I guess; but honestly I have so many good memories at the old place; It’s sad it moved… and the acoustics in the new building give me a bit of a headache… (Giant “L” shaped room) although It is nice that there are two bars now… although there really isn’t any space for the lines to go. The show however was pretty good with the exception of a few of the groupies for the Fix… they were a bit pushy to the point that the heel on my new boots broke and I got a few healthy bruises too.. Oh well; those wounds have healed (excepting my boots; I still have to find some place i can get them repaired…).
Unfortunately, after New Years, I got REALLY REALLY sick… Sick to the point that I was bedridden for 2 weeks and in and out of the doctor’s office every 2-3 days. They still haven’t fully figured out what it was; but it’s healing up okay now. There was a strong suspicion of an ulcer due to the fact that I had some internal bleeding in my stomach. However, when I went to the specialist I was already feeling mostly better (finally!) and she said that there was a good chance that is was gastritis… which just means that I have to be good to myself and let it heal…
As for my trying to reenlist in the military; I talked to the recruiters and they said that the MEPS (Military Entrance Processing Station) doctor said we were missing some papers in my med-read file – namely my separation paperwork and my recent ophthalmological (eye) exam. This doctor is the same slimy doctor that I had to deal with the last time that I enlisted and he tried pulling some really shady shit then too; so keeping my patience is trying… Fortunately my recruiters are pretty cool and they’re resending the same papers again so that he can get the stick out of his ass… So hopefully we will hear something soon about that…
On the heart front I still love Spyder mercilessly…. I wish I could afford to fly down and visit him for just a few days even, or have him come home like I know he really wants to for a little R&R… Just to finally be able to see him hold him and kiss him would mean sooo much to me; but I have to be patient I know.. it just seems that at this rate his enlistment will be over by the time that I am finally going to be able to see him… So I remind myself as I do countless times a day:

“Love is patient, Love is kind.. Love never ends…”

I’ll live…. It’s just the constant waiting that has claimed my life for the time being…. I know I will live; but it just doesn’t seem to get any easier…

Not a Marine afterall…


So I didn’t make it… but it’s okay… I managed to get myself hurt and sick all over…. I’m healing still but it’s slow…

They discharged me on thursday… I flew into LA and my wonderful man picked me up… I’m staying with my gramma down here until I figure out a place… I love him and we’re figuring out what o do next…

I’ll come back and visit Seattle soon… until then best of luck!


Independence Day!!!


Happy 4th of July!!! Guess what I am doing today??? I will be driving down to the government owned property (Ft. Lewis), to be searched by the guards that work for the government (Soldiers at gate) to partake in the government sponsored “Freedom Fest” and celebrate my freedom from an oppressive government!!! Yaay!

Well at least I thought it was funny… I’ll only be hanging out there for a while… so still looking for something to do tonight… 🙂


Your Creation


I remember seeing the lights glimmer
through the trees
thousands of shades of green
and the light it’s own blessing
this is your creation.

I remember standing on a mountain top
standing on top of the world
looking across a glory I can barely imagine
this is your creation.

I remember swimming with the fish
watching the sea turtles dance
the beauty of a different world
this is your creation.

I remember encountering a world
completely apart from my own
I will never forget
the glory of that world I saw
it is your creation.