Tag Archives: Song/Poetry

Abandonment.

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I cried so many times before you rany away.
Ran into the abyss unknown,
whilst leaving your children behind.

You ignored my tears, even in the last minute,
causing me to ask if we could have ever understood who you were.

I heard the sound of your death, but my mind denied it and shook it off.

Through a reflection in the glass and trapped in a cage he told me you were gone.

I guess I should understand that you needed your gentle peace to come.

The anger I now harbor,
And the hurt I now bear,
ache within me.

I see you everywhere and wonder if your peace has really come.
I fear the peace,
but not in death, in life.

I feel it coming to me; but at what cost?
And can you ever really be there?

I feel you around me;

and I do not understand it.
Are you even really there?
even if you are;

How can I know you won’t leave me again?

Imperfect

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Can you see the writing on the wall?
Don’t you know it’s not my fault?
I didn’t want it any more than you,
Probably even less.

Do you think he’d approve of how you’ve acted?
Would he smile at you now?
Just because I was there and couldn’t stop it
Doesn’t make it all my fault.

I sit here imperfect
Flawed from my birth in your eyes
I was shut out
Handed over to your beloved son
Who loved me as his own
And still you blame me for a self-inflicted fate.

You say that I am just a pity seeker
Only calling to make a quick buck off your pain
Don’t you realize that I have lost more than I’ll ever know?
I’ve lost the only father who called me his own.

Forever I’ll be missing a large piece of my life
Lacking a love I thought I knew
Abandoned and betrayed by my only true father
And yet I am the bad guy in this sick game.

I sit here imperfect
Flawed from my birth in your eyes
I was shut out
Handed over to your beloved son
Who loved me as his own
And still you blame me for a self-inflicted fate.

I’ve grown some now
I’m out searching from someone to love
Giving my heart out to all the wrong men
Only hoping to find one who loves like the man I lost.

Now I see that few are the true men
Ever loving without condition
Now I see who my father was
Although now it’s too late

Don’t you know I saw it happen?
He had a dead man’s eyes…
Long before the bullet ever struck him.

Can’t you see I’ve been weeping alongside you?
The man was not just a brother cousin and son,
He was a father too.

You are not his only mourners
You were not his only family
And you did not watch it end!

With eyes wide open I saw
My jaw left hanging wide open
All I could do was run from facing it all
And in an instant erase the unforgettable.

Three years down the road now
Painful memories long forgot return
As m face burns from the searing tears
I realize I will never be the same

I sit here imperfect
Flawed from my birth in your eyes
I was shut out
Handed over to your beloved son
Who loved me as his own
And still you blame me for a self-inflicted fate.

I will never be the same…. (I will never be the same…)
I will never be the same…. (I will never be the same…)
I will never be the same…. (I will never be the same…)

Only love can break you.

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They say that only love can break your heart,
only love can break you
then why do I feel this ache
did I really fall in love again?
Why did I let my heart come out…
Just so it could be ripped up again
and disappear so quickly.
I half wonder if I ever really had one.
If I have a heart it’s broken now
I let love shatter it again
because they say only love can break your heart.
I’m trying to not fall apart…
The pain inside it deepens
who can know what I am saying
I hope I wasn’t a waste of your time.
All I can do now is wipe away my tears…

Standing on the Other Side

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Standing on the other side is sometimes the harder thing to do,
feeling everything you’ve put other people through,
then seeing the same pain you’ve once felt in the eyes of the one you love,
you wonder why it always seems to be this way,
half hoping for it all to go one way,
yet wondering if that would even be best.

Sometimes it’s harder being on the other side
knowing where you’ve been,
halfway seeing where they’re going,
and all you can do is hope,
hope that soon it won’t be sides
and wonder why it always ends up this way.

Feeling the same pain you once went through on the other side,
knowing all you can do is hope and be there for the one you love,
wishing there was a way to end the confusion,
hoping the confusion will just go away,
but fearing it all the same, while feeling all the pain,
then you wonder if you even want it gone.

Sometimes it’s harder being on the other side,
knowing where you’ve been,
halfway seeing where they’re going,
and all you can do is hope,
hope that soon it won’t be sides,
and wonder why it always ends up this way.

Sometimes it’s harder being on the other side in life,
and you wonder,
you wonder,
wonder why it always ends up this way.

Breaking the heart in a box

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How am I supposed to tell you that you’re breaking me?
What can I do to help you choose?
Whilst you ponder of your heart’s content,
I sit here dying from within…
I’ve already given you my heart,
I hoped you’d wear it as proudly you do her name over your own heart…
but instead I watch you keep it in a box and hidden away.
I kiss you gently and feel nothing there,
then look into your painful stare,
as the tears brimmed within my own eyes,
I watched the tears fall down your own cheek…
I know you’re hurting, but I am too,
My dearest love, this is killing me…

Falling Angels

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Around her the angels tend to fall down
She lives in a hurt she can’t seem to bear
A vale of tears falls around her
there’s puddles everywhere
she stares straight ahead
afraid of falling down again
she hides all her cares.

She knows she is different
not quite like anyone around.
remembering things that seem unclear,
she questions all that she is taught.

Breathing keeps getting harder
drowning in the pain within
no one knows why she is hiding
or when she’ll finally break down.

Even memories are unreal to her
as the angels keep falling down
she thinks she’s not worthy of pleasure
knows no other feeling but pain.

Her heart grows heavier
with every new tear stain
the angels keep falling down
leaving her alone and behind.

Wishing for freedom she holds on
but also hoping for an end.

Don’t you know?

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I am not gonna be so feeble anymore.
It’s not  worth it to live and suffer,
but I still can’t seem to understand,
how you could just run away.

Don’t you know you didn’t just dissappear?
Don’t you know you left me behind?
I’ll never understand how you could just leave your children behind…

I miss you…