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Harvest Feast, Halloween, and Hanging out…

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I know I am petty bad about updating this thing, but really my blog its more for me than anyone else… If you choose to read it I do appreciate it, but really it is primarily a way for me to sort my thoughts out…

Since the breakup a lot has gone on, and yet not much at all… But life is starting to look up. I’ve been growing inside, which is great, I’ve seen a lot of good stuff happening around me… then again I guess there’s a lot of heart aches too.

I know the Jason is hurting and that kills me. I hate seeing a friend going through so much pain and knowing that it is my doing. but I have to be true to myself… and even Jason admits that he was trying to change me.

So Halloween went pretty well, I spent the weekend with Hengist, Mira, Thorolf, and Sabrina… It was really nice having us all together all weekend. On friday night we all went up to a Halloween party at a friend’s house in Bremerton. I ended up dressing as “Rosie the Rivitor”… Even loaned me an aluminum pipe wrench that totally made the costume… And I got to see a bunch of my friends that I haven’t seen in way too long. It was really a blessing.

Saturday we all went to another party in Seattle… And there I got to see a bunch more of my SCA friends that I haven’t seen in months or in a couple of cases a few years (along side the usual suspects of course)… This time I borrowed one of Mira’s costumes and so I was an “anarchy cheerleader.” Yet again we all got goofy and had a great time…

Strangely enough, Sunday everything was pretty tame… Mira had a belly dancing show scheduled at Karma in Puyallup, and Sabrina headed back home to Yakima. So Hengist, Mira, Thorolf and I went to the show where we saw Dana also… But the venue was putty barren so we just ate a nice indian food dinner… (lamb vindaloo – yum!) Mira want feeling too hot anyways, so it was probably good that she didn’t dance.

On monday, I woke up sicker than snot with a fever… And I have spent the whole week in bed recovering… It’s a brutal bug this year, almost everyone we saw this weekend caught some variation of it (lucky butts Sabrina and Thorolf exempt)…

I was capable of functioning about midday friday which is good because I discovered a horrible lump on Moses’s torso… so by the generous grace of Sven and Anne, we took Mo to the vet. The very want quite sure what was going on, but after he took some fluid from the limp he saw it was infected so mo got a shot of strong antibiotics which have been helping immensely…

Moses is still having thyroid troubles,  so we adjusted his meds a bit, hopefully that helps with his neurological problems, but he is ever too skinny… He only weighed in at 9.1 lbs when he should be somewhere around 16 lbs…. So somehow we have to get him eating enough food to start putting on the weight. Wish him luck, he needs it.

Saturday was harvest feast… Which was okay, but Hengist and Mira didn’t go because they couldn’t eat anything on the menu (stupid gluten), and Sven didn’t go because he was a groomsman in a wedding. Feasts are so bunch more fun with them there…

After harvest feast Thorolf and I went to an after party which was pretty tame (that was preferable though) and later we went to see my friends the Hard Money Saints, and James Hunnicutt play at a bar just past the Roy Y. It was great seeing James, Jack, Mondo and Nick after so long… Kinda weird wearing my viking garb to the trail end of a rockabilly show, but all was good. Lastly we hit up Walmart to pick up some last-minute toys for tots donations then home…

I think I did way too much because I’m feeling pretty icky again (or still) but it has been great seeing all my friends I have been missing. Kills like I may have some photocopy gigs coming up possibly too to help concert my gas bill a bit better… Which is a relief… But a real job is priority…

Also congrats go to my cousin who had her baby… He is a cutie-pie although I have never met him because I have been sick… And I have a phone interview on the 12th.. So wish me luck with that… I have been out of work so long… I’m stir crazy…

I feel like I’m figuring myself out which is exactly what I need to do… Still waiting on my final “no”from the military, and if that happens I will look into counseling to help sort me out memtally a bit more… I think it could be of great value…

I’ll try to keep this a bit more updated… It’s good for me to write out my thoughts, and if you care to read my ramblings, great! If not, oh well… like I said this is mostly for me!

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God’s Stepping in…

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So life’s gone a bit nutty lately and everything has changed, while it’s not all necessarily good per se, I feel like it is.

First off God’s really opened my eyes again which is glorious and so my faith is growing again by leaps and bounds; I can’t say I can take credit for this all, but Jason (my new boyfriend – more on that later) has really helped me a lot.
He has me reading “Blue Like Jazz” by Donald Miller… This book is great! It’s all about Christian spirituality without being too preachy and is not afraid to talk about what’s wrong with the church along side what is right… it covers a lot of issues that I have which is nice because I have something I can share an affinity with.
I also went to Jason’s church (which is up in Kirkland) and I swear I just knew this place is what is right for me… it was great. The pastor is actually one of the old youth pastors from Life Center from back in the days when I was doing impact and he speaks awesome… Sitting in sermon was a new experience for me… I was so thirsty that I was sitting on the edge of my seat, it was awesome.
I really feel like god is working with my life to rearrange and fix it into what he wants it to be, so I am just trying to submit to his will. I lost my job; but that is okay really I was lucky enough to have a little money left from my tax return so hopefully I will be able to make it okay until I get a new one. I know there’s got to be something else out there for me that is better…
As for Jason, we have known each other for about 14 years, as he was one of my brother’s friends back in the day. However we’ve been pretty close friends for the last 8 years. Even when I was living in California we were in a reasonable amount of contact… the funny thing is it never really dawned on us that we should be an item…
We planned a pub crawl as we were pretty much the last single ones standing a couple weeks ago and in planning that we got to talking a lot about what our hopes and dreams are in life, you know the deep rooted ones like me wanting to be able to be a stay at home mother with my children and build guitars in my own wood shop… He has his dreams too and it’s amazing how spot on we are with each others hopes dreams and goals in life. I guess that is probably what sparked it… but when the pub crawl came around, magic happened. after that weekend we waited a couple days hardly able to stop talking to each other…
We sat down to Coffee and asked ourselves what is going on and determined that we’re going to go for it. We are being smart about things and set down the ground rules, like my SCA and viking stuff and his business. I really believe in him and he believes in me. I feel like god has put us together and is blessing us.
The weird thing is because we’ve been close friends for so long, it’s like we’re skipping that whole getting to know you stage of the relationship… I mean it’s not like we’re engaged, but it’s something we talk about possibly happening someday once we’ve met some of our current goals. It’s so nice though, he’s amazing.
But what happened with Spyder you ask? Well, he pretty much cut contact to me and so I had to just snip those heartstrings out. I know I said I love him, and I always have as a friend… as I do allow myself to love freely, but perhaps I let myself get too caught up in the moment? I still care for him, I just had to admit defeat and call him a good friend… it’s funny – once I did that God puts Jason right there…. and Jason is a much better match for me anyways. And I am working to not say things too early this time…

Post Autumn War Update

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I know I’ve been offline for a while… my excuses are finals at school and now I have also moved out of Sven and Anne’s trailer.

Finals was crazy, but I managed to survive quite well. I’m pretty sure that U got two A’s and a B, but I don’t really know for sure if those are my grades… but I am pretty sure I did good…

I lost touch with Allen, but I am not heartbroken – he didn’t really mesh well with my life… oh well… it was never too serious anyways… I’ve yet to see if we will continue to be friends but I have my  doubts… you know?

So I went to Autumn War.. it was nice and relaxing… I had fun hanging out with a good number of my North Sound friends… Clinton is starting an early period Celtic household and I am extremely proud of all of them… they are really shining already…

On another note, I was officially taken on as Sven’s first apprentice which was quite the honor.. so now to get even more serious about things again…

When I got home I actually managed a few days of rest and relaxation… only interrupted by work, it was nice… I probably should have updated, but we’ll just call it a vacation… haha…

I also met someone really great… his name is Dave. He just moved over here from Spokane and got out of the Air Force in  May… He’s seen a lot of ucky stuff over there in the sandbox. The more we get to know each other the more we seem to be compatible… However, I am almost convinced that he has been hurt even worse than I have… so we are both tentative to say anything too drastic. But there is a definite attraction there. So we are dating and taking our sweet time… it’s going beautiful really, he treats me wonderfully and I can see the honesty within.

As for my new place to live… Mom helped Jeremy (my brother) and I get a nice duplex near Sven and Anne’s house, so it’s not too bad of a move. It’s nice having my own space and whatnot… so That’s nice… I just hope I can manage to stick around in one place for a while…

Lord Defender’s Update…

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Had a good time at Lord D, a crazy Friday leading into it (I’ll tell you later) but a good weekend overall… Sven, Anne, Atli, and I were all trailer trash this weekend (Didn’t want to have to pack up wet tents) so that worked out… and we had places to throw the puppies unsupervised for feasts and whatnot.

It was nice to have a full event to myself without having to leave to go to work or anything else like that… so I am happy there. Got to spend some time with Atli again… I miss him so much when he is up north… but I guess that is just how it has to be you know? Hengis decided that he would enjoy his birthday present from Atli a little early and was passed out by 4pm on Saturday so I missed hanging out with him… I know Atli missed him too… but we made do… and Mira took good care of him so that is happy…

It was a small event which also led to minimal drama so that is great… I have needed a full event for some time so that is nice too.

On the topic of my obscene need for Atli, I talked with Mira for a good while and basically came to (my own conclusion she was just the supportive listening ear) that I am gonna take anything he offers me and enjoy all of it for what it is worth… Given that I need to focus on starting school, this is going to be a lot easier than I anticipated… I still love him… but I want he to have the best version of me so that’s what I am working on… and if we can enjoy each other in the process, spiffy…

I definitely needed a good event…

update…

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So I don’t work at Jenny Craig any more… and also have moved back down to Tacoma again… there’s plenty more to update but I am tired after Viking fest… but I do still love John Very Very much…. such is my curse…. Like I said to him at Viking fest — and It rings true both ways… It was never for a lack of love why I ran away… everything just could not seem to mesh….

Memorial Memories

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Missing Mischka’s Memorial this weekend… It’s rough to think of so I am trying to distract myself mostly…

This weekend is September Crown… I wa supposed to get my green belt from him this weekend… Not be mourning his death.

I guess that there are a lot of things I have been expecting of the last year that did not come to fruitation… and now everything has changed. but there’s a lot of good memories too…

I remember kidnapping Sabrina by throwing her over my shoulder….

Mischka taught me how to take stills by candlelight that night…

I remember everyone taking over Emeil’s giant tent after everyone broke camp for fear of a windstorm at the All-thing… We had the party of the event..

that storm never happened… but Emeil was challenged on his alcohol production knowledge…

That Sept crown we had a moon shining competition.

It was hotter than hell and Mischka made me take pictures of the tournament…

he was impressed with how the pics turned out… he told me afterwords that that had been my test to see if he would make me an apprentice.

I helped with the moon shining that weekend too… We made 120 proof booze that we dubbed “The great Antirian white lightning”

we sent some with the royalty to a later event joking that we were “poisoning the water”

When I told Misch that I was joining the Marines he was stoked… he even started making a sword for me… I still don’t know if he ever finished it, but it was beautiful… even if there was a few imperfections in the Metal…

Of all the Memories I miss, I miss the memories I will never share with him even more.

I vowed I will keep learning to him… and I still will follow through… No matter what it takes…

Yaaay Sven!!!

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Finally Sven is getting the recognition he deserves… He has been put on vigil to become a laurel!!! After losing my laurel I have been so horribly stuck in a rut… but this has definitely helped to pull me out of it a bit…. I am still very sick… but I am so proud of my beloved foster-father… finally he is being recognized for his amazing talents and skills…

He should be elevated some July Coronation… I wish I could figure out a way to make it there… It’s such an epic moment in my family’s life… now I must find a way to get there… which mean that I must get money somehow…

Brad’s daughter is in town for the next two months… which means I will be meeting her in the next few days… I am kind of nervous about that…. it’s kind of like our whole relationship depends on a 9 year old’s opinion… and I just moved everything I own down here… so really I am stuck much more than I have been previously…. not that I feel trapped like I did before… I am actually finding that my life is calming down quite well…. Just gotto find a job… you know?

Farewell My mentor, My friend…

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I am sick from losing him.. forever grateful that I came up to send him on his way… Forever grateful I did get the opportunity to get to know him as well as I did… but we were far from done… we’d barely just begun… I still have a number of tasks he has given me…. one of them was to make my green belt… I was supposed to do that while I was stationed off somewhere or something… and then he wanted me to sit vigil the night he officially presented it to me…. People say this ‘junior apprentice’ crap around me… but all he ever said to me about my ‘title’ was that i was another of his apprentices… he taught me a lot about fealty and has been the only man I have sworn any to… he made a point of assuring that I understood what i was taking on by becoming his apprentice and it became a very personal endeavor… As i was going into the military he made me a sword (although I doubt I will get it now… he probably never finished) it was to be his one gift to me…. everything else I would work on personally… Everyone always said he was mad mad mad crazy mad… but even through the ADD he had a method to his madness… before I left for boot Misch made me promise that I will seek guidance of the masters along my way… and he’d still help from afar and whenever I visited home… his being in the military before helped him to understand my upcoming circumstance. He was my greatest gift… and I now sit here rather in-consolable…

My question is — what is an apprentice/squire/protege supposed to do when they lose their master/knight/pelican? I am quite lost right now… should I still make my green belt as originally planned? shall I place the placards on it as originally planned? I vowed to Mischka while he lay on his deathbed that I will complete all the tasks he gave me… but is there something about how I should deal with the belt thing in that it was never presented (mainly because it was never made)?

Should I be worried about societal appropriateness now? it’s never worried me much before… I do not see myself to stop mourning anytime soon…. completing those tasks given will definitely be a part of the process…

I am so sick….