Okay Roberta…

Here’s what’s up as of late…. I went to training for that promotion at work. I don’t officially have it yet… but it’s basically just a technicality… Got another raise for it… so now I make $10 an hour… I guess that is really uncommon in the company so that is good… I am starting to see clients an build my own column now too… which is nice because that means I will be able to move over to commission too…

Brad and I are still in this great game of Hot-and Cold… but we are coming down to the roots of our fights more… he keeps thinking that anytime I confront him with a problem I am trying to start a fight… which is just not true…

I couldn’t make it up to WA for Mischka’s memorial today… which is bumming me out a bit… but I guess that is how it goes… So much good stuff was still to come from him and that horrible accident had to take it all away…

I’m off today so I am just going to work on my new site… if you wanna see the logo, go check out http://www.newvikingage.com I think it looks pretty spiffy…

Memorial Memories

Missing Mischka’s Memorial this weekend… It’s rough to think of so I am trying to distract myself mostly…

This weekend is September Crown… I wa supposed to get my green belt from him this weekend… Not be mourning his death.

I guess that there are a lot of things I have been expecting of the last year that did not come to fruitation… and now everything has changed. but there’s a lot of good memories too…

I remember kidnapping Sabrina by throwing her over my shoulder….

Mischka taught me how to take stills by candlelight that night…

I remember everyone taking over Emeil’s giant tent after everyone broke camp for fear of a windstorm at the All-thing… We had the party of the event..

that storm never happened… but Emeil was challenged on his alcohol production knowledge…

That Sept crown we had a moon shining competition.

It was hotter than hell and Mischka made me take pictures of the tournament…

he was impressed with how the pics turned out… he told me afterwords that that had been my test to see if he would make me an apprentice.

I helped with the moon shining that weekend too… We made 120 proof booze that we dubbed “The great Antirian white lightning”

we sent some with the royalty to a later event joking that we were “poisoning the water”

When I told Misch that I was joining the Marines he was stoked… he even started making a sword for me… I still don’t know if he ever finished it, but it was beautiful… even if there was a few imperfections in the Metal…

Of all the Memories I miss, I miss the memories I will never share with him even more.

I vowed I will keep learning to him… and I still will follow through… No matter what it takes…

Yaaay Sven!!!

Finally Sven is getting the recognition he deserves… He has been put on vigil to become a laurel!!! After losing my laurel I have been so horribly stuck in a rut… but this has definitely helped to pull me out of it a bit…. I am still very sick… but I am so proud of my beloved foster-father… finally he is being recognized for his amazing talents and skills…

He should be elevated some July Coronation… I wish I could figure out a way to make it there… It’s such an epic moment in my family’s life… now I must find a way to get there… which mean that I must get money somehow…

Brad’s daughter is in town for the next two months… which means I will be meeting her in the next few days… I am kind of nervous about that…. it’s kind of like our whole relationship depends on a 9 year old’s opinion… and I just moved everything I own down here… so really I am stuck much more than I have been previously…. not that I feel trapped like I did before… I am actually finding that my life is calming down quite well…. Just gotto find a job… you know?

So sick…

So here is an update… I have been horribly ill since I left Seattle… Maybe it is grief… maybe just the flu…. I just know that I have managed to run out of medicine and I feel to shitty to get more…

Farewell My mentor, My friend…

I am sick from losing him.. forever grateful that I came up to send him on his way… Forever grateful I did get the opportunity to get to know him as well as I did… but we were far from done… we’d barely just begun… I still have a number of tasks he has given me…. one of them was to make my green belt… I was supposed to do that while I was stationed off somewhere or something… and then he wanted me to sit vigil the night he officially presented it to me…. People say this ‘junior apprentice’ crap around me… but all he ever said to me about my ‘title’ was that i was another of his apprentices… he taught me a lot about fealty and has been the only man I have sworn any to… he made a point of assuring that I understood what i was taking on by becoming his apprentice and it became a very personal endeavor… As i was going into the military he made me a sword (although I doubt I will get it now… he probably never finished) it was to be his one gift to me…. everything else I would work on personally… Everyone always said he was mad mad mad crazy mad… but even through the ADD he had a method to his madness… before I left for boot Misch made me promise that I will seek guidance of the masters along my way… and he’d still help from afar and whenever I visited home… his being in the military before helped him to understand my upcoming circumstance. He was my greatest gift… and I now sit here rather in-consolable…

My question is — what is an apprentice/squire/protege supposed to do when they lose their master/knight/pelican? I am quite lost right now… should I still make my green belt as originally planned? shall I place the placards on it as originally planned? I vowed to Mischka while he lay on his deathbed that I will complete all the tasks he gave me… but is there something about how I should deal with the belt thing in that it was never presented (mainly because it was never made)?

Should I be worried about societal appropriateness now? it’s never worried me much before… I do not see myself to stop mourning anytime soon…. completing those tasks given will definitely be a part of the process…

I am so sick….

my impending visit…

Yeah so this will have to be a short one.. lightning fast… well planned out and that is about it… so If I don’t get to seeing you I am sorry I will try to get up again when things are more settled… life’s a bit crazy right now… FYI!

Flying Home Tomorrow…

I am flying in tomorrow… Mischka had a motorcycle accident and Brad and I are flying up tomorrow… Brad is behaving himself wonderfully since I told him I was leaving in efforts to keep me close… so yeah he gets a 2nd chance for now… things are like they should be…

Yeah…. I’ll see people when I can.